When I returned to Mangalore I got another surprise. The leading newspaper of the state had offered a post to work for them. I really did not expect it. I was in a fix what to do? Later I came to know the fact that due to my excellent performances at inter-collegiate level I had got this offer.
I came to know that once when I participated and won the best poet prize at state-level, an editor of the newspaper who was from our city noticed me and later my principal appreciated and recommended my name. When I got this offer first I thought not to go. Then later I decided that let me talk to the editor once. It was almost an hour discussion. I could not reject the offer as well as it was a golden opportunity for me to study human nature. On the other hand, editor was my principals close friend. And I had a very good impression all over. Before joining for the new post I informed the editor that hardly I would be able to work for 4 hours in a day for the magazine. Surprisingly he agreed!
Thus I started to perform 3 roles, a student in college, a senior manager at office and journalist for a newspaper. It was quite hard to maintain all the three. But I did not step back, as I just wanted to keep myself busy so that I could forget the past.
The new post brought me name. My bold articles and an entirely different style of presentation took many of readers by surprise. After going through the articles Most of the people had a thought that I must be around 30-35 years of age and must be having vast experience in my life. Whenever my editor was introducing me to new people they were in a shock that is this small boy writing all these? I was just smiling. I took each and every work given to me as a challenge. That’s it.
But after few days’ things started to change. My new work as a journalist clearly showed the real mean world. I was exposed to the dreadful colours of people. I was dumbstruck by realising how money, success and fame changes a person.
I have took so many interviews with so many celebrities right from famed actors, highly respected directors, cricketers or politicians but most of them came across as talented yet in need of character guidance. Arrogance seemed to be their middle name and don’t ever get us started on their etiquette. There is this dialogue in Tamil movie that stated that all actors are a bunch of crows (Kaaka Kootam). The great man who penned it was right. Instead I would like to add something .Not only actors but also 99% of the celebrities are a bunch of crows who changes with their success.
Personally I had never put much effort into interviewing celebrities fully aware of the inevitable problems that often cross in pinning them down for a solid one hour interview I was following the method ‘if you don’t have the time, sorry neither do I.’
Basically I am soft person but if somebody rubs me on the wrong way, they would face percussions. I had stopped in believing anybody. Single Dom is something that I embraced voluntarily since I never wanted to be shackled in a relationship and whenever I believed they tuned as another form of masks. And that’s the reason I have always stayed away from the relationships.
Establishing a personal relationship with me is a rare feat for others, often withdrawn and focused on my work I talk and mingle very rarely prior to inching back to my shell. When I believe in something I go ahead and do it and stopping me is impossible.
Please quote me. I have nothing to hide. When I realise one person about their real nature thereafter whenever I think about that person the face of the person will not come to my mind. Only that personality, nature appears. May be because of this reason I will never take photos with any celebrities. I will take only autographs. That too, just to realise their real nature because I know graphology (study of human nature by seeing their handwriting). Studying human psychology is one of my hobbies as well.
All my colleagues and classmates were asking and telling that if we were in your place we would took a snap with the celebrities. I was asking,' by taking snaps with your favourite person what you would get? Nothing! Don’t follow anyone. Try to learn something by them. They’re not god or goddess. They are just human beings like us. They have attained success in their particular field. If you try you can also achieve it. Realise it.’
My all friends or neighbours were wondering whether am I the same person who did not take any food for 5 days when India lost against Sri Lanka in 1996 World Cup semi-final. They thought I have changed and have become a pure materialist. But I was the same person. Difference was I had realised the bitter facts of life. I think it was a continuous collective cold war, which was going between my mind and heart that actually changed my feelings forever. I had strongly believed that there are no human beings in this world. Only masks! One below the other, below that one more!
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