Part 85: I want to cry, get console…. And I want to forget even myself!

'Hello! I’m back'.

Still no response. I had to call him for the third time.

Thank God. Now he turned back and saw me. As soon as he saw he came down.

'What’s this? I had to call you thrice. You were lost'.

'Sorry!...Yeah, I was. I forget everything when I see nature. Same thing with the animals.

I gaze them for hours'.

'Hey, you always steal my words. Anyway I’ve brought something. Have it first then you can enjoy the nature. Okay?'

I gave him the plate in my hand and said, 'Promise you will come again to see me soon, alone'.

Unable to evade that earnest request, I had to say I shall and then suddenly a question raised in my mind. What did he mean? Was he leaving? Oh no.. Oh God. I couldn’t imagine the thought and the fear of losing him.

I just could not control myself. Did not want to lose that friendly heart, golden heart by which he did not touch only my heart but my soul. I just broke down

Like damn explodes! Like ice burg melts in front of sun rays! Could not control myself. Lost myself completely. Did not even have second thought.

Just hugged him! Wept full of heart with some one, on someone’s shoulder for the first time in my life when I was matured.

'Oh philosophers.. Oh critics. Forgive me. Please forgive me.. . At least forgive me for today. I cannot keep up my words that I will not cry with some one. That too with a star when I hate them a lot. But I want to get console. I want to cry. I want to lighten my heart. I want to forget everything. Even myself. Please forgive me'.

I don’t know how long it was. I just closed my eyes and lost myself. Tears were coming out of my eyes and rolling down on my cheeks.

After few minutes when he felt like I am consoled he just took my face in his both hands and wiped my tears. I was clearly able to see my tears, shining on his thumb in that moonlight. It was shining like a crystal.

I realized a fact.

'Until the sunrays fall we will never come to know that there are seven colours in a drop of water. Until we get connected to good people we will never come to know that how we are living!'

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